Just gonna put these here for safe-keeping, because it seems like the kind of realness I’ll be deleting tomorrow.
Addendum: I’ve spent so many mental hours struggling with the prospect of making more things and asking people to pay money for them. Like for some reason my brain enjoys imagining that: I do everything that was promised in my Indiegogo, then I make new things, and then try to sell them for money, and then people go “whoa, whoa, we gave you six grand eight months ago. That not enough for you forever?”
It’s hard, obviously, to navigate from a position of charity case to niche content merchant. Especially because they can be so easily confused for one another. But it’s a navigation I’m gonna have to get a handle on, because, honestly, I’ve been trying to do the normal job thing and it has not been working out. Which is mostly down to me not being a very good human being, but there are very few classes for working on that skill, I think.
A long, long time ago, I did a crowd-funding campaign, and one of the incentives to donate was that I’d record commentaries to a few movies. One of them was Jurassic Park, a little-known Spielberg film from the sixties.
Today, I finally did it. Here’s a sample (which you can listen to without watching the movie and still follow along just fine), and if you like what you hear you can grab the entire commentary, for free, here.
It’s incredibly silly, and I had a really fun time recording it. If you’re in the mood for two straight hours of me making up shit about dinosaurs, you’re in for a treat.
Before I was “sent down”, I’d been working on this little thing, a small (really small) book detailing a god’s creation of depression. I wasn’t sure if I was trying to make it funny, or if I was just trying to process some of the thoughts and feelings I have about the depression I’ve suffered from for most of my life.
And then I went to prison, and all the stuff around that happened, and now this Scrivener project feels like a relic from a simpler time, when my biggest stress was trying to figure out if I should even be working on this thing, if anyone would want to read it aside from myself.